I drove back to te cup of tea. As it open for anot out and strolled up in tion of the church.
I crossing t-place tle I’d seen feeling. I couldn’t see tify and yet I could have sworn I knew her.
S up treet and turned doreets to t, to quite knoy, perly as a kind of precaution. My first t last almost at t it struck me t it as likely t s Bletc case I’d o cep, because if s I o iously, keeping at a safe distance and examining riking about it. Sallistis y or fifty, in a rat on, as t slipped out of , and t of a slut. And yet to identify, only t vague somet s, perly s to a little s and paper stle s al it anding in to a stand of postcards. My opped to pass time of day.
I stopped too, as soon as I could find a send to be looking into. It or’s, full of samples of tings and time I fifteen yards a ime of day. ‘Yes, t’s jest about it. t’s jest o else do you expect?” I said. It don’t seem rig? But as alk to a stone. It’s a sting be one of ter all, toers of ! It was Elsie!
Yes, it fat hag!
It gave me suc, mind you, seeing Elsie, but seeing for a moment t of my eyes. taps and ballstops and porcelain sinks and to fade ao tance, so t I bot see t I s recognize me. But s made any sign. A moment more, and surned and on. Again I follo I I just o
sion on me. In a manner of speaking I’d been c I ce different eyes now.
It a kind of scientific kick out of studying ’s frig ty- four years can do to a y-four years, and te skin and red mouturned into t round-sed made me feel doe so completely as t. I’m fat, I grant you. I’m t at least I’m A s even particularly fat, sly to , it a kind of soft lumpy cylinder, like a bag of meal.
I folloo of mean little streets I didn’t kno t in, it outside tioner and tobacconist.’ So Elsie tle sopped before, but smaller and a lot more flyblo seem to sell anyt tobacco and t kinds of ss. I ake a minute or t in. I o brace my nerve up a little before I did it, because to be some hard lying if by any chance she recognized me.
So t sapped on ter. So o face. A recognize me. Just looked at me t tomers—utter lack of interest.
It time I’d seen ed gave me almost as big a s first moment to be able to foresee ’ll look like ’s all a question of t if it o me, y and sy-to forty-seven, it s. t type of middle-aged like a bulldog? Great underurned do tly like a bulldog. And yet it in a million. completely grey, it y colour, and t to be. S kno a customer, a stranger, an uninteresting fat man. It’s queer can do. I s expecting to see me, or of all—sten my existence.
‘Devening,’ s listless hey have.
‘I a pipe,’ I said flatly. ‘A briar pipe.’
‘A pipe. No lemme see. I know we gossome pipes somewhere. Now where did I—ah! ‘Ere we are.’
Sook a cardboard box full of pipes from some imagining t, because my oandards no, so be so ‘superior’, all t Lily and pretended to look thpiece.
‘Amber? I don’t kno any—’ surned tohe shop and called: ‘Ge-orge!’
So too. A noise t sounded somethe shop.
‘Ge-orge! t other box of pipes?’
George came in. outissleeves, rainer moustacive kind of ed in tea. tarted poking round in searc five minutes before t to earttles of ss. It’s of litter to accumulate in ttle sock is fifty quid.
I c among tter and mumbling to s of an old rying to describe to you . A kind of cold, deadly desolate feeling. You can’t conceive it unless you’ve . All I can say is, if to care about ty-five years ago, go and I felt.
But as a matter of fact, t t urn out from . times I’d s under tnut trees! ouldn’t you t er-effect be time , and as mucrangers as t. As for even recognize me. If I told remember. And if s even be angry because I’d done ty on hing had never happened.
And on t Elsie o go to t least one ot ’s safe to bet t surprise me to learn t sogetreated ion about t, and many a time it reets, I used to tick imes I felt I’d been a bit of a bastard, but otimes I reflected (rue enoug if it been me it less s? A damn sig t gone to to t ended up like everybody else, a fat old a frotle saco call a string of kids as ed and died lamented—and migcy-court, if she was lucky.
t any hem.
‘I don’t kno any amber ones just at present, sir. Not amber. e gossome nice vulcanite ones.’
‘I ed an amber one,’ I said.
‘e gossome nice pipes ‘ere.’ S. ‘t’s a nice pipe, no one is.’
I took it. Our fingers toucion. t remember. And I suppose you t t for old sake’s sake, to put . But not a bit of it. I didn’t t smoke a pipe. I’d merely been making a pretext to come into turned it over in my fingers and t it doer.
‘Doesn’t matter, I’ll leave it,’ I said. ‘Give me a small Players’.’
o buy someter all t fuss. George ted out a packet of Players’, still muncacea for not it seemed too damn silly to e and t I ever saw of Elsie.
I back to ter out o tures, if t instead I landed up in one of t of too a couple of caffordsravelling in talking about tate of trade, and playing darts and drinking Guinness. By closing time t I o take taxi, and I under t morning I han ever.